By Sarah Field
“When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him?” Psalm 8:3
God is so much bigger than I can ever imagine or than I give him credit for. I look at my life right now, seeing so many changes and it is a very scary thing to see plans interrupted and have things you have set your heart on break.
However, God never promised us the security and comfort of where we are; that we are going to live a comfortable life where he grants our every wish. He only promised a security in Him. We, in such diminutive mindsets, try to make sense of what is happening around us. We use past experience and feelings to try to guide us to a place of knowing. When we walk a life of following Jesus, we are constantly challenged to be open and to trust a Being that is far beyond our understanding. He is the Creator of the universe and every tiny element in it. He is pure love and has made us with a beautiful intention to be in His image and to be in an intimate communion with Him. The Holy Spirit, who is at a constant work in us, does not make complete sense to us in our heads. However, we know he is at work in our hearts for us to be more like Him. To let go and just let that work take a complete lead is a scary, unknown thing. However, it is what we were made for.
Lord, I cannot make sense of why things are happening the way they are. I cannot make sense of why you are allowing things to happen. I cannot make sense of what is happening within me. But most of all, Lord of Lords, Creator of Heaven and earth… I cannot make sense of why you fight for me so much. That regardless of my mistakes and how many times I have ignored you or been angry at you, you still are at work within me and you will never leave me, and you love me just the same. The good purpose that you have for me does not change. You have been working at it the whole time and it is still happening. You have always seen me as your child and you will always continue to be my loving Father. Thank you Jesus!
It is amazing that the Creator of the Universe desires a relationship with me!!! Hard to make sense of, yes, but a wonderful and awe-inspiring truth, nonetheless.
I love you, Sarah.
I am so glad He still works in me, even when I mess up.
He is so much wiser, knowing what was, and what is, and what is to come. I am always trying to figure it out – and it all goes WAY beyond my understanding. Great prayer, Sarah – I really loved: “The good purpose that you have for me does not change. You have been working at it the whole time and it is still happening. ” I need to remember that, and pray it, too! He is faithful.
Really beautiful post Sarah. Very real and brave of you to open up your heart to us all. Thank you!